My last post was in July 2013 before my second trip to NJ and NYC. That trip would not wind up being the rip I thought it should be. A runaway for JBJ once again, his guy that led the runaway tours made me cry. He had no idea I was self medicated in a major fibro flare and his buddy Darrin made me laugh prior to my picture. Darrin looked at me and made me feel sexy even though I am not the skinniest of girls. He said wait until Jon gets a load of those tits. LOL! I laughed up until my picture feeling gorgeous, wanted, pretty. My ex always made me feel dirty but Darrin, he made me feel extraordinary in spite of the off colored remark.
I would come back one last time. I was called a whore, a squatter, and many other things, but regardless of those ignorant people I knew home is where I belonged. Cut to Feb 2015, I am still not back home. But…. I will get there. That is not where this tirade belongs however, it belongs in the fact we are all bullies. We are trying to figure out where our children are learning it, but they are learning it from us. It makes me sad. I don’t want to be that girl. I cannot wait to hear Lady Gaga in Sound of Music tribute. I am not perfect, none of us are, but thanks JBJ you alway remind me I don’t have to because we are “all a little cracked.” Sorry tirade… Suck it if you don’t like it. New Jersey is starting to come out more an more… And I love her, fat, hips, tits, and curves, and all!
My Journey Back Home 