Ramblings almost one year later

My last post was in July 2013 before my second trip to NJ and NYC. That trip would not wind up being the rip I thought it should be. A runaway for JBJ once again, his guy that led the runaway tours made me cry. He had no idea I was self medicated in a major fibro flare and his buddy Darrin made me laugh prior to my picture. Darrin looked at me and made me feel sexy even though I am not the skinniest of girls. He said wait until Jon gets a load of those tits. LOL! I laughed up until my picture feeling gorgeous, wanted, pretty. My ex always made me feel dirty but Darrin, he made me feel extraordinary in spite of the off colored remark.

I would come back one last time. I was called a whore, a squatter, and many other things, but regardless of those ignorant people I knew home is where I belonged. Cut to Feb 2015, I am still not back home. But…. I will get there. That is not where this tirade belongs however, it belongs in the fact we are all bullies. We are trying to figure out where our children are learning it, but they are learning it from us. It makes me sad. I don’t want to be that girl. I cannot wait to hear Lady Gaga in Sound of Music tribute. I am not perfect, none of us are, but thanks JBJ you alway remind me I don’t have to because we are “all a little cracked.” Sorry tirade… Suck it if you don’t like it. New Jersey is starting to come out more an more… And I love her, fat, hips, tits, and curves, and all!

NJ Visit May and June

Well it didn’t go as I had planned or expected. Mainly because in three weeks I didn’t knock it out of the park but I did manage to make some key contacts. But going back and being every where and any where really got me thinking I need to be home now. But I still want to do it on my terms and have the right job. The job that is my dream job that will lead me to my destiny. In the mean time I get to go back soon… And this is my motivation and what keeps me sane! 

The Philadelphia Three Day Approaches

On Monday my girl  and I met up. We planned our outfits for the three-day (hey the campier the better, the more outlandish the more fun, the more outrageous, the more we get people to talk to us along the way.) We are really excited about the three ay this year. I chose Philly because it is so close to home and I miss home. But today I had another experience.

I was recently told this morning that my participation in the Susan G. Komen Three Day event does not help raise awareness regarding Breast Cancer. Here was my answer. How doesn’t what I do not raise awareness? Help me understand? You just over heard me speaking with my trainer about the walk and the pink community. What goes into planning and training to walk 60 miles. What we must do to raise the minimum which I try not to hold myself too. I always want to raise more and be bigger and be bolder. You decided to add your two cents in and you do not know me. So what do you know about Breast Cancer? Do you know more and more men are being diagnosed but because they don’t think they need to check themselves, it is often in a later stage? Did you know the funds we raise go to help provide free mammograms to people who need them?

Did you know more and more women under the age of 40 are being diagnosed? It is still predominantly found in women over 40 but our Pink community lost one of its own last year at the age of 29. (insert woman’s hand over her mouth.) Yes mam you heard me correctly 29 years of age. This year a friend’s sister was diagnosed at 20 while pregnant. 20 years of age. Did you know that while mammograms will detect a cyst, ultra sounds and sonograms are better (these need to be the standard.) My, albeit benign irregular cyst, was only found because of the ultrasound. Had I not had the ultra sound it would have sat there. It was the cells that can turn (not to say they will but can). So me being able to push the issue and be my own best advocate detected something that could have been potentially harmful.

We wear shirts that say Grope your wife save a life. It gets people talking. The more we get people talking the more we can raise awareness. The more we can share what Komen shares with us. We all share what SGK posts on twitter and Facebook. Maybe our friends get sick of us posting but because we are part of this community we are the voice, we are the faces, we are the ones walking to stomp our cancer and get people to do research learn more and be bolder with their own health. By the way mam, when was your last self check and mammogram? Two years ago (insert my face drop) because you feel your 60 and don’t need to any more? Excuse me? Do you have children? Do you have grand kids? Yes, don’t you want to be around for them? Well of course you do… up walks her hubby… Hey buddy, your wife thinks me walking for SGK for 60 miles is futile. She hasn’t done a self check. Do her a favor… Grope your wife and save your life. AND THIS IS WHY I WILL ALWAYS BE A JERSEY GIRL. Girl turns defiantly on heel and walks away!

Three-day camp after 20 miles